50 million pounds!

This has been a crazy couple of weeks. You will have to forgive me on the entry stuff. I have been busy with Christmas and shopping and visiting family. Since my pictures from Christmas are not ready to be put up yet I decided that I needed to write something. As you know this blog is all about what is happening in my life and here is one of the just writing entries instead of the usual picture theme. The last 2 years have been kind of hard for me and there has been a lot of transition in many different aspects. There has been a lot of fights, my sister who I am very close with went into the navy and I hardly get to see or speak to her anymore, moving and even a new dog. Of all these things the most drimatic that has happened to me is when my mother passed away 2 years ago and I was not the same after. I began to get depressed and mad at everyone that said anything about my mother or death for that matter. I didn't really show it but I was mad for a long time and then when the sadness came over me I let it take me completely. Along with the depression came the eating and not exercising. I really just ate like a horse when I was excising 3-4 times a week. After I didn't want to exercise I was eating the same and 20 pounds later I looked at myself in the mirror and went...WTF?? Who's body is this. All of my clothes were too tight and I kept thinking I need to do something. But still something in me was not wanting to exercise. After my boyfriend started to work out and he lost so much weight in very little time ( Damn you men and your ability to loose weight really fast). I still didn't want to loose weight. So stupid I know but when your not ready you definitely won't do anything about it even if you tell yourself it will be different tomorrow I promise. Well the other day I was watching tv and I saw this commercial with this woman at a buffet and she was about to carry a huge ice cream Sunday away and there was this man standing there like don't you dare take that to your seat and she stopped looked at him like she was a 7 year old just got caught doing something bad, put the ice cream down and said " I think I'll hit the salad bar". I laughed a little because it really was funny and then it said join the 50 million pound challenge. Out of curiosity I looked up the wed site and signed up. It is free and they have really good tools for you to use. There is a meal tracker, daily journal ( it even has the mood you are in today), weight tracker, grocery list of good things to get for meals and snacks, team building, and other things. I started yesterday and so far I feel accomplished. I have a goal of 20 pounds by the end of 2010. I don't want to put on a lot of pressure because in the past pressure just makes you fail ( well with weight for me anyway). If you are interested in the 50 million pound challenge go to http://www.50millionpounds.com/.... Wish me luck!