I hate diets. I have to say that because obviously I am on one right now. The past year and a half i have gained 20lbs and I do not like the way I look or feel right now. I used to go to the gym about 4 times a week and eat pretty good. My rule was during the week I would eat fairly healthy. Not too much sweets or fatty stuff and during the weekend if I went out to eat I could get whatever I wanted. It worked pretty good and I ended up a size 4. I was finally promoted at my job from doing account stuff to project management. The plan was that I was going to take the place of another girl that was going on maternity leave and learn the ropes and when she gets back we will continue with how everything was and I will continue to do my assistant job. I loved every minute of it and I even figured that I wouldn't mind being this for the rest of my career. ( Keep in mind I wanted to finish school too) It was great at that time. I was so busy but I didn't mind because I love it. Then about 2 weeks before the girl was going to come back from maternity leave I had gotten a phone call from West Jefferson Hospital. A doctor told me that my mom was in the hospital and that he needed to speak to me right away in person. He told me that he thinks she has colon cancer. It was a whirl win from there for two weeks. I was in and out of work ( mostly out) and I stayed with my mom and my aunt for 3 weeks until finally in hospice care she passed away. It was the most awful thing that has ever happened to me. I can still remember her face and what she looked like before she died. It haunts me every night. I can't seem to get over it. I was severely depressed. I saw a councilor at school and when to church for counseling and nothing seemed to make it better. When people tell you that time heals all...it is not true. There is still a big hole in my heart and if you talked to anyone that has lost someone very deer to them then they will tell you. Maybe the pain won't be as much or fresh but it is still there. So back to my story. I had gotten depressed and quit working out for about a year and a half. Gained 20 pounds and now my cloths hardly fit and I am sick of it. I tried going to the gym and eating like I regularly do but that didn't help so this is the second week that I am "dieting". I have no mayo ( I have slipped once, but you try eating a sandwich dry, it gross) excessive sugar, soda, anything really high in calories. As you can see I went to HEB and got a bag of tilapia frozen. I took some out to thaw and stick it in some foil along with some frozen veggies and it tasted pretty good!!!
I don't know if you can see but it was super juicy and came out very good. I just seared both sides with some olive oil and Cajun seasoning and put it in a pouch at 350 for 30 minutes. I ate it so quickly. I wouldn't mind having it again after I get back from the gym tonight but I have to restrain myself. I also made another note to myself. If I get down 10 lbs I will be happy as a clam. I realize that I am not a little girl anymore and that my body is changing but I could still loose a little weight and its all about being healthy. So go out there and grab an apple instead of a big juicy burger with lots of cheese and a Dr pepper and curly fries. OK STOP!!! I have to go before I make another cheat. Go healthy!!
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